Remembering Rusty – Undina’s Looking Glass
A year ago, we said goodbye to our wonderful cat, Rusty. We are still grieving. My vSO and I both loved him very much, and he loved us. I do not feel the acute pain of his loss daily, but it comes and goes.
Last December, I ordered a daily calendar with 365 photos of Rusty, and it became our ritual to tear off the next page every day before the first meal. We see a new picture and remember when it was taken or a good story about that moment or a similar event in our life with Rusty. It’s both sad and joyful.
It doesn’t make me feel worse when we interact with other people’s cats. And we often enjoy funny cat photos and videos on Instagram and YouTube. Theoretically, I even want to get another cat… but as soon as I start thinking about any practical steps, I can’t imagine bringing one into our house, where some of Rusty’s things still live with us. Maybe one day, but not yet.
Rusty was such an exceptional cat. I’m not even sure I want to stop hurting after him.